An attempt!

Alright then! I finally have decided to try my hand at blogging: something I thought I would never do. Not because it was bad, or boring, but I somehow had always felt it was not worthwhile. "Why the hell are you writing then?" one might ask. My only response to that would be: The US of A. Confusing? well yes, it is!

I guess I had written enough about it in the mails. Let us get into some "more serious" stuff now. The last post was a real good one; though I saw it only today. I do not know who wrote it, but I guess it might be a girl, for three reasons:

1. "I remeber myself.. late teens .. thousands of strong ideas.. some hundreds of values, a strong plan.": I cant think of a guy who is so determined!
2. "I have my technical career chartered out": Most guys dont plan that far ahead!
3. "emotionally, it is a 20 something chrisis." : There are very few emotional guys and almost none of them have a 20 something crisis :)

Well, ok. That much for my FBI (I am in the US of A, u know ;)) work. Was I correct? as in any detective story, it is always the culprit who confesses: Lets see if that happens! (its not a "culprit" here, of course!!) Its very possible that this self proclaimed FBI agent (me! me!) might turn out to be a pathetic failure! But yes, of course, I must say that the issue raised is very relevant. I have gone through the same sort of confused emotions, and I still do occasionally (yeah, u guessed it: I am one of those "few emotional guys" :)). After thinking quite a bit about why this happens, I have come to the conclusion that I get to this kind of a mood when I am left all to myself for long periods of time. "Man is a social animal and I am a man", (or atleast surely a future man ;)). I leave the logical deduction to all ye fellow compsceez!

I do also feel, that there are these times of "depression", when everything in this world seems to go wrong! There are times when one feels that the whole world is conspiring against him/her. I cannot tell you a remedy to this, but yes, I sure can tell you what I do when I feel like this: I sleep off! It might sound funny, but it helps, really! I get up, and its a whole new world altogether. Your world is what you think it is!

And talking about goals, and taking responsibilities, all of us are at a critical point of our lives where we are moving from being the wild, careless, free soul to a more timid, careful and restricted soul! The transition is not easy, but surprisingly, not difficult too. Just live. Live like you always have. The beauty of the human mind is that it cannot stop learning. You will learn as you live. And even before you know, you will be ready to take up all the responsibilities and challenges, which at this point in time may seem far fetched.

Shattered plans! Oh Yes! there have been a lot of those. If somebody asked me what I wanted to do, my response would be spontaneous: I want to eat tandoori roti, paneer butter masala, hyderabad chicken biryani, 3 times a day, 7 days a week, sleep for 10 hours a day and play aoe for the rest of the time! But then, thats the not the way it works, aint it? This is exactly where the "responsibility" part comes in. I have been told many a time to get more focused. Hmm.. Focused: a word that dictionary.com explains as "To direct toward a particular point or purpose"; a word thats so abstract; a word that I have tried hard to understand, and given up!

But nonetheless, I am trying to get more "focused" and I continue to convince myself that I am doing something for my "future", my "long-term-goal"!. And I presume that is what most people are doing (People who think otherwise, please forgive this fool for such lowly thoughts!) .

Finally, what was I trying to convey by all the crap that I wrote above? Ashok had already said part of it in his comment to the previous post. Its plain and simple:

Live Life King Size! Live life as if you are going to die tomorrow! Think of tomorrow, Plan for tomorrow, but do not worry about it! And do not think beyond tomorrow, never!!

Midnight

Another night, as I sit on my bed, beside the window. I can hear the still busy street below me. It is October 06. Where did all the days go?

I remeber myself.. late teens .. thousands of strong ideas.. some hundreds of values, a strong plan.

Now, in my early twenties, just a few years have elapsed, but those thousands of ideas have gone. The bubbles have burst. A few values remain. The strong plan has vanished. I have my technical career charted out, but emotionally, it is a 20 something chrisis.

People around me are accepting commitments, taking up responsibilities, while I still feel wild. and free. and happy. and lonely.

Anyone feel the same?

Thousands of changes in just three years. Why don't you share a piece of it? Successful ideas? Shattered plans? Has anything changed your definitions of good/bad?

Waiting to hear from some of you..

Don't think this blog is dead...

Know it is!

Guess this place is dead..

So,

Where did all the people go? Is everyone busy caught up with their lives? Or is everyone job hopping? Whats happening folks?

In true compsci style may I ask, with very little knowledge, what do you think is the future for IT? Whats in it for us as Indians? Will another country bite a larger share of the offshoring/outsourcing? Will the technology change? What about the brain gain happening? Is higher studies going to get much more importance in the future?

Ramble, ramble you lazy folks, over here. Lets stop a minute to think in this frenzy of life. It may very well sort the road ahead..

the birthday, the coffee and the (d-uh) pickle!

Feb 14th is coming up and a bangalore guy doesn't want to be seen as so much of a loser that he actually is. This desparate man (read posts below to find out who) was thinking of help and just then the yahoo groups post came in: its someone's birthday on 11th!! Nothing could be so aptly timed than this one! So not missing the chance, this person known for his timing calls up the hotline number (Chids) and gets the coveted phone number. And now, well armed, the man is ready to make the call. After bowing to the cupid-lord, he calls up. Luckily the connection gets him through. And in a flustering jiffy, he is through with the wishing(or-so. the wires weren't properly tapped to find more out)! Now he asks for the treat (read valentines day out!). Since this guy aint really a man to ask the person out alone, he asks for a 'group' treat. Well, its no more like in the college where you could catch hold of somebody to accompany you to the juicy eh! So he searches around and there in the corner he finds an unsuspecting victim - Agent Zero!! He asks the bday gal to treat them both!! how sly :)

Well, we've named agent zero oorgai (pickle in tamil) - on request due to this incident :)

Now thats a cover report on the page 3 gossip that's been running around bangalore lately. First witness reports are expected any time soon. Or do we really have to wait for Feb14th? I'll bet whose waiting to reply !!

p.s: this post takes a dig at a lot of people. Though it was intended, it wasn't meant to be taken seriously!

21 THINGS COMMON TO ALL ENGG COLLEGES

1). The lecturers dont teach.The students dont
study.The only guy who benefits is the one who owns
the 'dhaba' next to the college.

2).Rules are made to be broken.

3).Promises are made to be broken.

4).Deadlines are made to be extended...ALWAYS!

5).Guys always think the chics in the college next
lane are more beautiful.

6).The lab assistants are the most respected
people(during the lab exams i.e)

7).The watchmen are the people most bribed.

8).The HOD is the person most respected(heights of
sycophancy here).

9).The principal is the person most abused and
insulted(behind the back i.e)

10).Dropping subjects is 'cool'.(arre yaar..drop the
idea of dropping subjects plzz).

11).There is always a lecturer in the college who cant
speak proper 'english'.

12).Night-out is the second most important tool to ace
the exams.

13).All time u will be in debate with students of other
branch as their branch is d BEST.


14).The most important tool..the bhramastra..is the
'chit' in which the words can be understood only by
the person who wrote them(in most of the cases i.e)

15).The freshers are the most sought after..be it in
the canteen,the 'free' periods or for completing the
records,assignments.

16).One has to live in constant fear of a DROP all
through the engg carrier as according to new revised
stringent RULES any thing can happen to ANYONE.


17).The second-years are the ones with the 'I am the
don-of-the-college' feeling iff one not has MECHANICS KT of
1st sem.....( BAP of all papers of ENGG).

18).The third years are the ones with the
'so-many-backlogs' feeling and the poor souls get down
to studying after bossing around in the college
for so long.but the fun still continues.

19).The fourth years have no connection with the
college whatsoever...with no interest in
ragging,pulling each other`s legs,the bday parties,the
bday bums et al which they enjoyed so much till
now.All they want is a good placement and a
'1st-class' tag attached to their memo.

20).The first three years are spent in cursing the
college,the people there,the system et al.

21).But towards the end of the fourth year,people tend
to feel nostalgic abt the pure unadulterated fun they
have had for 4 years.Now the very system they
disliked,the very canteen they cursed,the time that
they spent there,the bday bums they suffered..all
these seem like heaven to them.


......................THIS IS HOW OUR ENGINEERING
COMPLETES.................

Wht say guys?



Anonymous postage

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I do not know how many of you have heard this song by Green Day. It's my favorite, and I really like the lyrics:

"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's ****** up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

http://www.mp3.com/tracks/5502794/dl_streams.html

Btw, 'hot' does not apply to girls alone, I know a few guys whom 'id classify that way and if you think Single women have a great time as opposed to single men, think again.